Will you take my hand in yours? 

I’m weak and can’t stand and bare this stress I face.

Will you keep me in your arms and hold me in your warm embrace.

I feel foolish when I depend on your support & can’t do things on my own but will you, Hold my hand?

I know. I know. Your greater alone because numbers always subtract but I need you here. Is it bad to want it like that?

Its not a lie or a fib that you make everything okay.

So please stay near I couldn’t bare it if you walked away.

Take two steps closer I’m reaching out , please hold my hand.

Everything is falling apart and I know your the only one who can understand.

Its like you became the tree that give me shade from the sun.

The moment you entered my life change had begun.

So Its not like I want your hand to be selfish. I just love the way you care.

And if you hold my hand, if you need mine I’ll always be there.

So please, hold my hand.

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Written by : La’Nora (Me)

08/08/2011

I dreamt of you, but I don’t know you. I saw us in such a perfect light. The way the sunset shows natures true beauty.

I wish I knew who you were, and that I could get to know you truly BUT,

the only way we ever meet is in my dreams. I wish I could close my eyes forever. And I would if it meant we would never be apart and spend endless days together.

How silly of me to want this, yearn for it and need it.

Your image is such a blur to me when I force myself to create your picture just for a moment because thinking gets me know where

Only when I close my eyes I see every inch of you from your head to your feet standing right there.

It such a shame that if I were to open my mouth to describe you that I become speechless and dumb found to even say one simple detail.

This isn’t fair.

And I can’t keep wanting to live in a dream forever.

Why aren’t you real ??

Written by me (La’Nora) on may 30th,2011

I seem so trouble when ever I try to make sense of my thoughts and figure out an answer to any question that appears in my head as I close my eyes.

When I open them, my vision becomes blurry like I’m not meant to see what is the right thing for me to do making any direction I take a mystery. I wish is was clear to me like the air I breathe but nothing in life is so simple. you can’t pop it like a pimple.

As a little girl I never understood when my mother would say “My head gives me so much trouble.” but now I know what she meant and I can relate to it. 

I hate to be stuck, it like my mind has these invisible claws clinging on to me making me unable to move . 

troubled mind, oh how I hate thee. why do I create this problem on me??

Thoughts goin in circles, I can’t think straight.

written by me (La’Nora) on : may 30th, 2011

My dying soul cries out so loud yet no one can hear me weep. Everything is silent. I won’t even utter a word of the pain I bare, I keep it to myself.

Tears drop more heavy on to my lap and I’m drowning so helpless. I wish an angels hand could pull me out but that I wouldn’t trust.

I feel as though that helping hand is just as useless as dust.

I thought you were an angel but you cut me deep, this is why I shed these tears.

All that I found out, and I gave you my heart, sweat and blood for so many years.

I have all this anger, red like mountain fire set on a line of gasoline to wooden house.

But I stay quiet like a mouse.

You blinded me but now that I see the truth my eyes burn. I can’t help but cry even though I see the truth I might as well just be blindfolded again because it just hurts so bad.

may 14th,2011

Written by La’Nora

Her sweet and tender juice trickles down her thighs like rain drops against a window, she’s calling me  & I’m tempted as I feel my teeth begin to beat a heavy pain in my mouth craving for this delectable addiction of sugar. I pause and think to myself should I do it? Should I? I go, down blow to the heavens of her beautiful legs that she has wrapped around my neck. One taste and she moans “yes” I chuckle and stop. She screams “Oh no no, please don’t tease me”, “Baby no” In my head I think how I have her so anxious. One lick and she sighs at this pleasure. I love her, I want her, I need her, I crave her. And I love how she wants me too.

-xo La’Nora

written may 10, 2011

Do you really like me?

or do you like she, she who is over there with her long flowing hair as you constantly stare and I roll my eyes like I dont care. But, I do.

I wanted to feel noticed by you so I fix my hair and wear my best clothes and fix my best smile to go with my style and still your attention isn’t in my direction.

It hurts when you crave affection.

So I think to myself it’s always me who goes so far to be the bright light in your eye. I always fail every time I try.

Miss thing has you wrapped up and I can’t even twist you to look at all that I have done.

insecure for a moment but then I realize, life goes on and your not worth all this for one look because one day when I look like me, I’ll find someone.

xo La’Nora

26/04/2011

Flirt with me, let your eyes look into mine.

I want to feel you next to me. I don’t want to get away from you. A smile so divine.

Silly little giggles, your cheeks blushing red.

Our lips almost touching after every word we said.

I can’t describe how it is, nor does it matter to be explained.

Highly in attraction and alcohol is not the one to be blamed.

Deeply it becomes hard to kick and ignore.

The closer we get, its obvious we want more.

Finger tip feelings, light caressing hands.

Fluttered eye lashes sparkling so bright.

butterflies all around and it just feels right.

I look at her again, as she looks at me.

I wonder what she’s thinking. What could it be?

lips press, heat rises.

This intense feeling is nothing of surprises.

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written by me (La’Nora) on 04/15/2011

Its silent, there’s no sound.

Just blood dripping onto the ground.

pain please, fade away..

one cut is for the day your mom was hit, she says it’s all because of you.

two cuts is for when you cried yourself to sleep thinking “what did I do?”

Your parents fight, your dads unhappy. He drinks all day and they fight all night.

Oh its such a happy home. isnt that right?

three cuts because no one understands you. Your alone and who would even care.

4 cuts and this one is deep because everyfriend you had is now gone and you thought they’d always be there.

Things got harder, you became colder. You feel like the world is falling on your shoulder.

If you could fix their marriage you’d do it in the blink of an eye. Anything just so you mom doesnt have to cry.

Your ready for the 5th cut to your wrist, but even as you strart will it even end all of this.

Once again its silent, there’s no sound.

Just blood dripping onto the ground.

pain please, fade.

please.

And the cut is done.

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Written by La’Nora

apr.6th.2011

 I swear it’s always you that seems to grab a hold of my attention, everytime I try to figure out the attraction I find myself in another dimention.

Trapped under a spell that you didnt even cast in my direction but some magic has me to be all yours.

I see the way you pass everyone right by me as you enter through the doors.

I admire the worst and always want to be taken under their arms for some affection.

I yearn to be closer when the spark has both of our attention.

I tremble if she whispers in my ear or the slightest touch trailing down my arm sends a shiver.

A look into my eyes for a second makes my lips quiver.

This type. Your type? why do I seem to fall for you?

I want to know how ignore it, but I don’t even know how or what to do.

Is it something about your laugh? or the way you say my name?

I don’t know but you have a way to make me feel brand new and nothing is the same.

So now I lay here wide eyed at the stars thinking about why I adore girls of the manor?

why?

Sweet talkers who seem to never fall for the type of a good girl

Rather a girl who shows it all off, does a fancy dance and a twirl.

A cute look is never one to be noticed but sexy has all eyes on you.

It’s always that way no mattter what I do.

Lucky stikes sends my type in the palm of my hand

It comes for a moment then slips like quick sand.

I never learn that this type isnt the best choice

I fall back again at the sound of their voice.

12/05/2010

Written by La’nora

Sitting here all alone, constantly staring at my phone.

wondering, waiting, thinking and praying.

Hoping one day you’ll give me that call.

I miss how we use to be, love that you gave to me.

 Now tears are comming down my face at such a quick rate.

Wondering if being without you is my fate.

I know love doesnt fade in a day but it seems that way when you walked out here.

leaving things so unclear.. I guess I’ll still be waiting, for your call.

04/05/2011

written by La’Nora

I say yes and you say no

I say stay, and you say go.

I try to reach out and grab your hand, you slap it away and say this is where we stand.

although love ruled all but it brought defeat.

I’m drowing in tears dropping at my feet.

I try to hold you close but you reject my warm embrace,

You look so cold, I dont reconize this face.

As much as I’m holdin on your pushing me to be further from you.

I want to stay, but what can I do.

If you wont love me right , then someone else will do better.

Just don come crying when I say “you had your chance to be together.”

Is it you that i see, as you look at me and i think of what we can be. I know its my heart that blinds my sight, because it feels just to right. so i might, just reach out and grab it but will you turn around and stab it, and tell me to forgive and forget while i say its you that i regret and no longer what to know so i tell you to go because all that once was good is now bad and now i want you to remain sad and remember what you had.

I blacked out from your cruel hate as you told me, “our love is fate.” but suddenly it’s too late for your lies as I realize your no longer who you were before and I’m unsure of this romance we use to dance. It’s like you lost your chance to keep me. Even if you say you need me… I dont need you.

A million thoughts are racing through my mind right now as i lay here awake in my bed, it’s always these same thoughts over and over.

Love.

I think about it and wonder why love seems to never be the way I dream about. 

I’ve only known a love that swallowed me whole and spat me back out. It was a love that burned every being of my body. A love that cause tears to shed and break my heart countless times but to anyone who thinks of my experience, was that even love?

constant confusion.  A bitter outcome and leaving me to hurt those in the sake of comfort to heal my pain. Then when I thought I found something turns out it took my care and spat me out. Once again, what is love?

It’s a shame when the ones who do the best the can get the shit end of the deal while those can live on un scared by their actions. Fool around, say love still matters but then its someone else you claim to. Makes no sense.

I’m not sayin i’m this innocent girl who’s never done anything wrong because I have, I’m not proud of that. All I know is hurt has made me lash out. It’s hurt that makes my words bitter. It’s hurt that makes me what to say “f*** you” and throw those out of my life because really, if I meant something then hurt would have never happened. right?

I sit here, thinking.

I smile when someone gives a compliment. I giggle when I have a reason to laugh. But I don’t need one thing to make me mad because it’s built up over time.

I just long for the day when love doesn’t screw me over and leaves me looking like the idiot over and over.

I wait for the day when the words I love you will last a life time because I feel it in my heart there to stay forever.

To be held close in someones arms knowing the never want to let me go no matter how bad any problem we may face comes in our direction.

Someone who wont give up at the drop of a hate. Someone who can fight strong by my side and hold my hand to get through it all.

That’s love. OR so I thought love could be.

Now i’m lost as to what love is like and how it can be.

Losing sight but hope is still there.

 I'm caught up on every feeling you send apon my body, 

just wanting to be close the necklace around you neck.

I want to hang perfectly close to your heart that beats,
once we touch to make music to my very ears.
I love how you sound. How you smell. 
Finer then fine you are divine like the best classic wine. 
I could sing praises to your beauty and charm. 
I hold my sight on you to see your glow hovering over your presence as you entered my life,
 and I dont want the shine to fade out, blackout or tap out. 
I'm light you up and give the spark to twinkle like the brightest star because,
you are everything and more by far.
When I enter the warmth you cover me in I can snuggle,
 perfect as if you were the best pillow to give the sleep I need to enjoy the next day to come. 
Your the one, you make me rise up like the sun. All this I feel because of you. Its true. Never false. 

Jan.3rd.2011